Monday, April 27, 2009

Is it unfortunate or a good thing???

It's natural I guess in life for people to change right? I mean you go through things that change you like maturing, motherhood, fatherhood, your career, having money, going to war, where you live etc. I'm sure there are 100 other things that can change a person. I notice a lot when I talk to people I haven't talked to in awhile how they have changed or people I do talk to how they go through things that change them, etc. I always wonder how much I have changed and if I have changed for the better? I guess I would say (if I were to speak on my behalf, hehe) that I have changed for the better in some ways and for the worse in others. I have changed for the better in the fact that I have matured a lot and don't like to party or drink as much anymore (well of course not for the last 8 months, but before that), I am more responsible, I have different goals and I want such great things for Mike and I. I have probably changed for the worse in that I am more of an anxious person now. I worry about so many little things that I NEVER used to worry about. I let people who are judgemental get to me. I let the fact that they are insecure about themselves, so they feel the need to always judge others, effect me, when they should be the last people I am trying to impress. I worry about my health a little less than I used to, but I still let it bother me that if something happend to one person, it's bound to happen to me. I remember being young and not worrying about stupid things like this. I guess that's all in how people change and grow up. It's hard to grow up and start having responsibilities. Can't we all just stay young and live off of our parents forever?? hehe. (not that my parents ever let me live off of them, I remember having to work at dairy queen and couldn't even drive there yet, hehe, good times!! and I'm sure now that I'm having a kid, I wouldn't agree to that when he gets older). But I guess my whole thought is more about people who change not from just maturing, but from other things I guess, things that happen in their life. Is that a good thing or a bad thing? I guess it depends on how they change ugh? I mean people can change for the better from being a mother or a father and spend all of their time with their child rather than drinking or at a bar or with friends. But then people can change for the worse by letting other people around them influence them into becoming someone else or letting the fact that they make a lot of money now affect who they are deep down as a person. I don't know, I guess it just all depends on the situation and the person to debate if it's a good or a bad thing. Some changes are good and some are bad. I guess it's unfortunate when you lose a friend because they change though becuase they have their own crowd and you both are in different places in your lives. I guess it does happen, but it's just unfortunate when it does. Friends you can trust are hard to come by. But, I guess through this crazy life, you figure out who your real friends are that can remain your friend regardless of how their lives change. Sorry for the random thought of the day, you can thank my roller coaster hormones. :)

1 comment:

  1. WOW, THAT WAS DEEP..BUT IT GIVES YOU SOMETHING TO THINK ABOUT.
    YES PEOPLE DO CHANGE BUT GOOD FRIENDSHIPS ARE FOREVER NO MATTER WHAT IS GONG ON IN YOUR LIFE OR THEIRS, YOU HAVE TRUE FRIENDS THAT WANT TO BE A PART OF IT AND SOME THAT DON'T. IT'S UNFORTUNATE BUT THAT SHOULD MAKE YOU WORK HARDER TO FIND NEW FRIENDS. IT'S HARD UNLESS YOU BELONG TO A CHURCH OR SOME KIND OF OTHER SOCIAL ORGANIZATION. ANYBODY WOULD BE LUCKY TO HAVE YOU AS A FRIEND. JUST REMEMBER THAT.

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